I saw my chemo doc yesterday to figure out our plan going forward. Since I had reactions to both drugs they were giving me, he decided to give my body a week to get back to “normal”. I was frustrated at first – not wanting to delay ANYTHING right now. But, the new plan is to go with just one drug, and do it on Mondays. I’ll really only lose a few days in the mix. I can work with that. Meanwhile, this week I only have the burning, with none of the poison. Sounds like a good week to me. I plan to make the most of it!
This will shift my schedule a bit. I was trying to get a lot of work done on Mondays and Tuesdays, now that will shift to later in the week. I guess the part I have had the hardest time adjusting to is having no control over anything. I am a planner, a scheduler, a task-oriented implementer. All of that is out the window. Last week, Peggy said “I guess we just have to take it one day at a time.” To which I replied, “I don’t think we can plan that far out – how about an hour at a time.”
A big deal for me this week is trying to record a message that can be played at our annual meeting in late October. I am anticipating that I won’t have enough voice to do it live. I hate watching myself on video. Every time I do, I just want to quit ever speaking in public. But I have what I feel is an important message about bringing churches together. So it will just have to do.
If you are the praying type – Please pray that my body will accept the new chemo drug without any reactions so we can wind this thing up and kill the beast in my neck.